David Phelps - No More Night

This is a song that has helped  "lift my spirits"!

What a BLESSING!!

I Can Do This! (Really)

While eating breakfast on the porch with Jim this morning during the thunderstorm, I forgot about the anxiety and the thoughts which consumed me yesterday....
I know I can do this... whatever "This" means...

Making my "to-do-list" and drinking strong coffee from our new one cup Keurig, I realized that if I faced just one challenge at a time, (even if I completed or started one a day), maybe, just maybe I CAN do it...

My list today will be short...

1. Finish the "Waiver of Premium Benefit" insurance forms for Liberty Mutual,,, (seven) and mail at post office by 4pm...
                        Note to self.... What is a "Waiver of Premium Benefit"?

2. Complete my retirement forms......  maybe....

3. Grocery store...find nice steak and potato for this evening!!!

4. Call Debby for help!!!!

Karron

 

Things for later....

Get parking disability card for car...
Buy flowers for garden....
Spend gift card from Francie at TJ MAXX..... yea!

Can't Stop the Tears!

Why can't I stop crying today??

a. Too much sad news on the computer & T.V?

b. Too much laundry???

c. Too many weeds in my garden????

d. Too many cats wanting to be fed Fancy Feast instead of dry cat food?????

e. Too many bills??????

f. Too many house projects put on hold??????

g.Too many missed dinners with friends and family???????

h. Too little time for walks and long talks with Jim????????

i. Too long a list for groceries and Walmart supplies????????

j. Too many doctor appointments?????????

No, not really....

OK....

Here it is...

I HAVE TO RETIRE FROM A JOB I LOVE.... (REALLY... REALLY... LOVE!)

I'm sad, lonely and I feel for the very first time...useless...

**More...445pm
I feel better now.. my sister-in-law e-mailed me & I heard from some of the nurses at MMC...
Their GPE picture made me smile!!
& Lin dropped by to see Jim!


Karron

Enjoying Monday!

Breakfast on porch!

Nap after breakfast... of course!

A new week, and so far Jim is feeling pretty spunky!

Off to St. Louis Later Today

Yes... we will be traveling to St. Louis later today.... again...
The trip is nice, once I get everything and everyone in the car.....

MRI is scheduled for 6pm (for his spinal tumor) We plan to stay the night after supper at Applebees!



Blessings:

Great friends and supportive family!

The benefit raised $5,000!! (Planning to keep in savings & buy electric bed!!)

Karron

Everything Has Changed......

While Jim is taking an afternoon nap, I have decided to begin another blog.....(Why does it seem to take so much energy???)
I have looked back on my past blogs and have realized that there is so much I have not talked about....

Like.....

How do we plan for our funerals when we still have hope that we will live together for many years to come???

Why do we keep Jim's car in the driveway when he has lost his vision???

Why do we talk about "little", meaningless things like the Royal Wedding when time together may end too soon???

Why do we watch Dancing with the Stars when we could be spending time together, sharing, loving and praying???

I want to believe that both Jim & I have faith that God will direct us through all the difficult decisions and challenges facing us.....we just want to have a little "normal" in our lives and in our home.

As Jim's friends gather for his "Get Well Reception" today, I want to stop the tears, the doubts and endless questioning.....

I'm so thankful for so much..... it should be easier to do!

Karron