Friendship... Means More to Some Than Others?

Just thinking this weekend about friendship..,.

My friends mostly....

I think I have confused a working relationship, (developed over about 10 years), with what a true friend should be....
maybe I should explain...

This has been a great weak for Jim's health concerns.... it was spoiled to some degree this Friday by someone who I thought of as a friend.... however... as I found out... the closeness and concern for one another was just a co-worker's concern for herself.... many ideas, concerns, personal hopes and sometimes frustrations have been shared with this person over many years working together...

I made a big mistake....
What I thought was friendship, was just a co-workers ability to "get along" with me at work to give more gossip material to her already "full bag" of personal information to readily share with others...

How did I find this out????
Well.....

I was asked three times on Friday by employees I work with, "Are you leaving us?", "Are you retiring?"...
I was surprised and asked, "Who told you this?'  .....
Each one said, "Someone was talking about you retiring", or "Someone was talking in the break room!"....

How did this make me feel???
I am still hurting from these comments...
You see.....working means a lot to me... not just the money, insurance or other benefits I receive....

Nursing, especially Orthopedic Nursing, means more than anything.... except my God and family....
Everyday is a new beginning where I can provide patient care,be a  mentor, lead by example and feel that what I do every day can make a difference in someones life...
I will not continue to write down the negative feelings that I experienced since Friday...(although I truly wish to do so..)

Just sharing my hurt with my husband and very best friend, Jim, has allowed me to start healing from the wounds this
one person created in my spirit....

Blessings this week have been many, but have been over-shadowed by this experience... it is difficult if not impossible to feel blessed right now....

Karron

I will suggest however, that if my blog is helping someone with "gossip material", that they examine their own heart. I'm ashamed that I work in an environment which provides care, concern and compassion with such a person.